touchstone

when I wake up

I realize I have a pattern of listing off all the things I have to do, fix and change about myself, my day, my life. A wave of overwhelm floods into my chest and pulls my enthusiasm and energy down before I've even started my day. No wonder I don't want to get out of bed most mornings.
  If my thoughts are powerful enough to pull me down every morning, then perhaps my mind is powerful enough to lift me up. So, today I am exercising my minds ability to be positive and enthusiastic about my life.

"Buddha for Mum" 08/24/2009. Ink drawing, Matchbox & Bottle Cap. by Jane Brooks

honesty

today i slept til 10am
got up long enough to make coffee and an english muffin,
went back to bed read some haikus and finally glanced through sunday's nytimes (on tues morning).
it is now 12 noon and i feel like i can get out of bed.
some days i just want 'to do' absolutely nothing for myself or anyone else.
how do you 'do' nothing? it's still doing something.

val took roma for her day of acupuncture in san jose, then one-on-one yoga with susanna at yogasita. i have the house to myself, it is quiet, no phone calls or texts, it is a relief to have this simplicity.

val & I still struggle with how to flow in our life of caregiving, career building and settling in california. we struggle but we don't give up. so we struggle. and we don't give up.